You see, we have a neighbour who has disliked us for many years, no grounds for this dislike in our books. We have had many conversations in which he shares false accusations. This time it rocked my boat...... scared me, made my stomach flip and made me want to avoid all contact.
I shared with my husband about the confrontation and he had decided at the right time he would confront the person and ask him to apologize to me. I did not know of his decision until it took place.
You see I know this person is not well, needs medical care and I fully support that - but mental illness is not an excuse for rudenesss. This was explained to me many years ago and so I know that the fear I felt was real, deep to the core and yet I have to decide how I am going to process this emotion. I have decided I will not let it take me captive. You see emotions can rob you of many things in life and how I respond to that emotion can either hold me in bondage or set me free. Freedom has a much better sound to it and so I will pray about being released from this emotion and allow myself to slowly reclaim that peaceful place to which I once was. I can forgive the person, but I am slow to forget and will keep safeguards for myself emotionally. I will not allow myself to be vulnerable once again. I am learning from this and moving foward.
What are your triggers? It is so important to be able to recognize them when they come, process the emotion and rest from the emotional drain and move forward. There will always be triggers, next time I shall have my antennae better positioned to be aware.
My plan is to go back to my place of peace by Saturday, that is my goal. Pray that I do and one day we can compare notes when someone pulls the trigger on your emotional safe place.